The New Me

Hey, how do you like my facelift?  Pretty ‘ME’ don’t ya think??  I am totally excited about it!  Brown Eyed Girl never looked so good!

So, It’s been a LONG while since I posted on here…just over 2 years in fact.  I was looking back at my story and realized how far I have come.  Most of the posts have something to do with PPD.  Either recovering from PPD, being pregnant again and fearful of PPD reoccurring or trying to move on from PPD.  When I look back, I am amazed at how God used PPD to teach me and change me.  On a daily basis, I still hear myself in my head saying, “See you handle that a lot better than you used to.”  It’s still a part of the new me that has emerged after the PPD windstorm was over.

PPD was hard.  How’s that for an understatement?!?  It was the drought.  It was the terrible, lonely, hurting, angry time.

Yeah, it’s hard for me to say I am thankful for PPD…I still don’t think I can honestly say that.  But it definitely has brought good to my life.  Would I willingly go though PPD again.  Well…what’s that song my friend Lisa D. is always singing?

 

That’s What I’ll Be Willing To Do

There’s a voice calling me
From an old rugged tree
And it whispers draw closer to me
Leave this world far behind
there are new heights to climb
And a new place in me you will find.

Take my houses and land
change my dreams and all my plans
for I’m placing my whole life in your hands
Let the disappointments come
Lonely days without the sun
If through sorrow more like you I become.
Take the dearest things from me
if that’s how it must be
to draw me closer to thee.
And if you call me today to a land far away
If through sorrow more like you I become.

For whatever it takes to draw closer to you Lord
That’s what I’ll be willing to do
For whatever it takes to be more like you
That’s what I’ll be willing to do

I’ll trade sunshine for rain comfort for pain
Oh that’s what I’ll be willing to do
For whatever it takes, for my will to break
Oh that’s what I’ll be willing to do.

 

 

I’m willing, LORD.  If it means being closer to you, then I ‘m willing.

I took a blogging break for these past 2 years to heal myself and focus on more important things than blogging– mainly my husband and kids.  However, lately I have been wanting to write more–to tell parts of my story again.  So, here I am back.  Looking forward to sharing my heart with you and any other craziness that will certainly come up.

Isn’t our God amazing!!!!  Incredible.  Awesome.  Our God uses both the extreme drought of trails and the rainy season of healing in our lives to form us into his image.  I love my Savior more each day.